Year End Review 2005
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So the year is over and it went by fast, like they usually do. Ive had some good times, some bad times, i think they have evened themselves out. I made my new years resolution last year and i can honestly say that i stuck to it and fulfilled it completely. I got myself a job and ive worked there for 7 months and counting. It is a fine job but i wish for something better. I am proud to have stayed with it for that long. Tho not long to some, its very long to me. I got 2 cars this year, my first and my second. The first one made it a month and a half before it was in an accident and became a piece of crap. The second has lasted about 2 months and is breaking down on me and is becoming a piece of crap. Ive made friends, something i havent had before- well at least not in many years. Jerrod is one of my favorite people, he was my manager and now he will hopefully be a longtime friend. His cousin i met seems like he will be a good friend to have as well. He seems so much like myself which is freaky, but comforting in a way. I lost my grandfater a few weeks ago. A down side to this year. He will be truly missed. I wish that i could of known him better, but i love him with my whole heart and wont ever forget him. Billy- now we've had and are having rough patches. And i am afraid of how it is right now. I feel that i am losing him- after so long of being together its as if he doesnt want to be anymore. I dont understand how you can give your heart so fully to someone and they treat you so bad. I found out this year that he wasnt the perfect angel that i thought he was and that he's been a liar from the beginning and i dont know who he is anymore. I hope everything works out for the best though. So for this upcoming new year 2006 i make another resolution(s) in hopes of fulfilling it as i did this year, and here it is:

I want to keep a steady job and not become lazy.
And if i do not stay with a job i can take some time off
but have to start back up again.

I want my car to be fixed or get something that will
last me awhile.

I want to stay in touch with my new friends and not
lose touch with them and be how i was before- because
that was lonely.

I want to lose weight and get skinnier like i was half a
year ago and become more toned and healthier.

I want me and billy to stay together and for him to be
the person i want him to be, the person i thought he was,
and for him to love me with his whole heart and love me
the way i love him. For him not to lie and keep secrets
but to be honest and truthful.

I want to be happy, and to feel loved.
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Goodluck to me and i welcome the new year, hopeful of
better things to come.

Happy New Year 2006!